lunes, agosto 29, 2005

Happy Birthday, Blog!

This time last year was when I created my beloved bloggie. And admittedly I have grown attached to it. It's part of my life now. And so, I would like to greet it a:


You are the bestest blog in the entire world, for me, and yes, you did change my life in a way ;) . I've shared quite a lot in the year that I had you, and you simply rock! And I know you're always there for me when I need to let out. I hope our blogger-and-blog relationship will go a loooong way. Love you, blog, and may you have many more years to come! =)


And here is my first question to that thingy I've placed on my blog:

QUESTION: Did natalie Imbruglia portrayed ToNks?
ANSWER: In the picture, yes. The role of Tonks for the fifth movie has not been casted yet. But Natalie for Tonks is one fine choice, I must say.

jueves, agosto 25, 2005

And she blogs...

... a week, a controversial issue, pounds of homework, large doses of iced tea, a million packs of Sky Flakes and undeniably huge eyebags later. Seriously, I need to get a life.

I don't even know what to say in this blog anymore. At times I find myself on the Create Post page, to no avail. Whaaa, school is corrupting my mind!!

But anyway. Last weekend (was it really just last weekend?), Meg, Fiona, Gabrielle, Meg's cousin Randy and I watched The Great Raid. I originally wanted to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, but I was outvoted. But it was a fair trade since Gabe treated me anyway to popcorn. And it was a fun movie, especially the part where the soldiers crawled and we get to see their butts wiggle. And of course, the explosion thingy.

My mom picked me up at around six, and I begged her to watch Charlie with me. She won't, but instead, she bought a DVD player. So now we have one. Yipee! Tres cool. Then she treated me to dinner, and a foot reflex. Yay! =p

There won't be any classes tomorrow, and I'm going to have friends over. We're going to have two play productions, one of which is The Merchant of Venice by W. Shakespeare. In which I wrote the script. All I could say when Julie started to hand out roles was, "Oh, no, not me!" because believe me, it was hard writing that script. *sigh* If I knew this schoolyear's going to be this tough, like Gabe, I would have asked for five more brains, five more hands, and etc. I even SLEPT on my notebook last night, trying to study for a quiz!

I watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith on DVD tonight. It was a fun movie, and Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt make such a cute pair! The sad thing though, was that while I was watching, my uncle barged in to come and take the DVDs we already had watched. And then he saw three DVDs my mom and I had bought and he totally went, "Why did you bother buying these DVDs when I already have them?" and he said in in this way that really annoyed me. At first I didn't answer, just kept on watching the movie, until I got really irritated and said, "So what?" And then he got major annoyed and went, "So what nga!" and grabbed all his DVDs and walked out. Hmph. I'm still a little miffed with that one. I mean, it's really so what. So what if my mom and I bought those DVDs, even if he already has them? Is that a crime or something? Jeez!

I'm going to change my template soon. It's another personalized one. Well, semi-personalized to be honest... I'm slowly polishing it, and I don't know, honestly, when I'll be able to put that up. Oh well.

Time to say goodnight... I'm absolutely drained.

jueves, agosto 18, 2005


Marz's tag, saying that I haven't been updating for a loooong time, hit me. But, like, I don't have anything to blog about!

Except that...
  • I'm sleepy! I wanna go to bed already, but my S.S. teacher is keeping me awake doing homework, which is this acrostics thing that I knew I should've done last night. I look at what I typed so far, and it's crappy shit. But I can't think of anything good!
  • I got my English diagnostic test, and, well, I'm Excellent! Yay!
  • ... and I got my Math diagnostic test, and... I'm Low Average. *twitch*
  • Today was my turn speaking in front of the class for English. Suffice to say, I survived. I'm typing this entry right now, aren't I?
  • I failed my Filipino exam, seriously. I am not even kidding.
  • I also failed my Science test. No big surprise there.
  • I'm feeling guilty over typing this entry when I know I should be doing homework. Argh, it's haunting me like crazy!


  • I'm getting worried, because as I reread what I typed for this entry, it's all about SCHOOL. Is this good, or bad?

miércoles, agosto 10, 2005

Last Song Syndrome

*sighs happily* I missed updating my blog, but I just cannot find anything to blog about. I'll probably blog this weekend, but for now, here's my current LSS.

Stay- Cueshé

I believe
We shouldn't let the moment pass us by
Life's too short
We shouldn't wait for the water to run dry

Think about it
'Cause we only have one shot at destiny
All I'm asking
Could it possibly be you and me?

So if you'd still go, I'll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if you'll stay, I'll hold your hand
Cause I'm truly, madly, crazily in love with you

Time has come
For us to go our separate ways
God forbid
But my mind is going crazy today

I feel so cold
Feel so numb
I'm having nightmares but im awake
Help me lord
Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away

So if you'd still go, I'll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if you'll stay, I'll hold your hand
Cause I'm truly, madly, crazily in love with you

Now that you're gone, I'm all alone
I'm still hoping that you would come back home
Don't care how long, but I'm willing to wait
Cause I'm truly, madly, crazily in love with you

domingo, agosto 07, 2005

An Urge...

I would've traded my current blogskins with a Lupin-Tonks one by now, provided that (1) I actually found one and/or (2) I have time to make one.

This obsession is sick! Sick, I tell you!

The Expensive Daughter Strikes Back

WARNING: Contains a few HBP spoilers. Sorry, I can't help it.

Oh whee, exams are finally over. You have no idea how happy that made me, but I'll tell you anyway. It's because of:

1. Not waking up at freaking three a.m. to freaking study!


2. Not freaking studying!

So you see, yes, I am very happy. But I felt that I sucked in my exams. I studied hard, but I think I must've overlooked a few things, because these few things happened to appear in the exams and I don't know them. Tres horribles. I just want to get a freaking good score! Aargh!! *frustrated*

Today, my mom didn't have any work, so first off we went to my Uncle's house to give him an entire case of Revicon Ion. Then we hit the malls. I was actually not in the mood for shopping, but of course, being born with the gift of being the expensive daughter, I still managed to empty my mother's pockets (or was it burn her credit card? Gee, I don't know.) . My mom was actually nice enough to buy me a new blouse, and even offered to get me sandals, to which I said I preferred jeans, but still zilch, because I haven't been able to find a good pair of jeans NOR sandals. She also treated me to lasagna and potato stars in Greenwich, and oh, she also bought me a new Timex watch. Plus, she told me she's getting me an iPOD! Whoa. Talk about generous!

One thing I need to mention is that I'm still not over Lupin and Tonks, and I've been looking for Lupin-Tonks fanfictions. I just need to ask you though (well, HP fans). If Lupin marries Tonks, won't she change her last name? I mean, her whole name is Nymphadora Tonks. If they get married, how can she be Tonks when she'll be Lupin? And Tonks does not even like her first name. So she'd be called Lupin then? But won't that be confusing, since Lupin is already called Lupin? You know what I mean, right? So what's she gonna be then? Lupin? Nymphie? Or Dora? I really wonder.

Oh well, got to go read more fanfics. Bye-bye.

I'm a sucker for Lupin and Tonks. I know. =p

miércoles, agosto 03, 2005

Dumbledore is Not Dead


Obviously, I'm not over Harry Potter VI yet.

I finished three tests a few hours ago, and now I'm spending time with my computer before I burn my brains out for my next few tests. I finally finished my essay, by the way. It just needs polishing to do, and wa-lah!

I surfed this message board and I found this web site on Dumbledore ( And since I'm a staunch believer that Dumbly is not yet dead (or maybe I'm still in denial), I checked the site out and I found very interesting arguments on why Dumbly isn't dead.

Here are nine clues:

1. Dumbledore's Big Chill

Harry and Dumbledore are up on the top of the tower underneath the Dark Mark. Harry is wearing his invisibility cloak, Dumbledore ordered him to put it on before they mounted their brooms to ride to the top of the tower. Harry hears footsteps and looks around, but Dumbledore orders him with a gesture to retreat. Harry draws his wand and backs away:

The door burst open and somebody erupted through it and shouted, "Expelliarmus!" Harry's body became instantly rigid and immobile, and he felt himself fall back against the tower wall, propped like an unsteady statue, unable to move or speak.(HBP pg 584/545)

It's interesting to note that things are happening so fast, even Harry is momentarily confused:

He could not understand how it happened -- Expelliarmus was not a Freezing Charm -- Then, by the light of the Mark, he saw Dumbledore's wand flying in an arc over the edge of the ramparts and understood... Dumbledore had wordlessly immobilzed Harry, and the second he had taken to perform this spell had cost him the chance of defending himself. (HBP pg 584/545)

Why did Dumbledore freeze Harry? Harry was already invisible to their attackers and in no danger.

The only explanation could be that Dumbledore already knew, had already planned, that he would die this night (or appear to die), and not only did he not want Harry to become involved and possibly be injured himself, he needed Harry to be a witness, to be able to tell everyone else what happened.

Dumbledore might have also promised Snape that he would make sure that Harry would not be able to interfere, knowing how Harry feels about Snape and what Snape was about to have to do.

The supposition that it was Dumbledore's plan to do this all along is supported by the fact that he acted so quickly to do it, almost without thinking, when Draco burst in on the scene.

Harry's own assumption that the Freezing Charm was done by Dumbledore is supported by the fact the curse lifted when Dumbledore left the tower minutes later.

2. Let's All Play Dead Together

While Dumbledore is trying to talk Draco out of killing him, Dumbledore proposes an interesting way out for Draco:

"I can help you, Draco." "No, you can't," said Malfoy, his wand shaking very badly indeed. "Nobody can. He told me to do it or he'd kill me. I've got no choice." "He cannot kill you if you are already dead. Come over to the right side, Draco, and we can hide you more completely than you can possibly imagine." (HBP pg 591/552)

Dumbledore then offers to expand his mother in the protection, and even Lucius when he gets out of Azkaban.

This is very interesting, isn't it? Draco doesn't take him up on it, but Dumbledore is saying he has ways that could make it appear that Draco died when he really hadn't. Doesn't that sound exactly like what we suspect that Dumbledore has planned for himself?

UK Edition Missing Important Text!

The UK edition of Half-Blood Prince is missing some text that is included in the American edition, and it's text that is very important to this clue!

This is the text as it appears in the UK edition:

"He told me to do it or he'll kill me. I've got not choice." "Come over to the right side, Draco, and we can hide you more completely than you can possibly imagine. What is more, I can send members of the Order to your mother tonight to hide her likewise. Your father is safe at the moment in Azkaban...when the time comes we can protect him too...come over to the right side, are not a killer..." Malfoy stared at Dumbledore. (HBP UK Edition pg 552)

But this is the same passage from the American edition (text missing from the UK edition in red):

"He told me to do it or he'll kill me. I've got no choice." "He cannot kill you if you are already dead. Come over to the right side Draco, and we can hide you more completely than you can possibly imagine. What is more, I can send members of the Order to your mother tonight to hide her likewise. Nobody would be surprised that you had died in your attempt to kill me -- forgive me, but Lord Voldemort probably expects it. Nor would the Death Eaters be surprised that we had captured and killed your mother -- it is what they would do themselves, after all. Your father is safe at the moment in Azkaban...When the time comes we can protect him too. Come over to the right side, are not a killer..." Malfoy stared at Dumbledore. (HBP US Edition pg 591)

Both of the ommissions are directly related, they are about having Draco appeared to have died, so it would seem the ommisions are intentional.

Did J.K. include those lines originally, and then decide she had gone too far and made the clue too transparent and obvious? Is it possible she decided to remove them, but the lines got accidentally included in the American edition anyway?

3. Fawkes Doesn't Try To Save Dumbledore

We've seen Fawkes come in at the last moment and save Harry's life in Chamber of Secrets:

As Harry trembled, ready to close his eyes if it turned, he saw what had distracted the snake. Fawkes was soaring around its head, and the basilisk was snapping furiously at him with fangs long and thin as sabers -- Fawkes dived. His long golden beak sunk out of sight and a sudden shower of dark blood spattered the floor. (CoS pg 318/234)

And he also saved Dumbledore in Order of the Phoenix:

... one more jet of green light had flown at Dumbledore from Voldemort's wand and the snake had struck -- Fawkes swooped down in front of Dumbledore, opened his beak wide, and swallowed the jet of green light whole. He burst into flame and fell to the floor, small, wrinkled and flightless. (OotP pg 814/719)

We know Fawkes was nearby the tower, as he shows up after Dumbledore's "death". So, why didn't Fawkes come to save Dumbledore this time?

I think the fact that he didn't makes it possible to believe that Dumbledore didn't want his life to be saved, and this supports the theory that it was Dumbledore's plan all along to "die" up on that tower that night.

4. The Flying Avada Kedavra

As soon as I read the description of exactly what happened the moment that Snape killed Dumbledore, little red flags were popping up in my brain, but I didn't pay attention to them at first. This was actually the very first clue that alerted me to this whole thing.

Every other time we've seen the Avada Kedavra performed, the victim simply falls over dead:

He was screaming so loudly that he never heard the words the thing in the chair spoke as it raised a wand. There was a flash of green light, a rushing sound, and Frank Bryce crumbled. He was dead before he hit the floor. (GoF pg 15/19)

From high above his head, he heard a high, cold voice say, "Kill the spare." A swishing noise and a second voice, which screeched the words to the night: "Avada Kedavra!" A blast of green light blazed through Harry's eyelids, and he heard something heavy fall to ground beside him. Cedric was lying spread-eagled on the ground beside him. He was dead. (GoF pg 638/553)

However, in Half-Blood Prince, when Snape curses Dumbledore with the same spell, Dumbledore violently flies up and away from the tower:

Snape raised his wand and pointed it directly at Dumbledore. "Avada Kedavra!" A jet of green light shot from the end of Snape's wand and hit Dumbledore squarely in the chest. Harry's scream of horror never left him; silently he was forced to watch as Dumbledore was blasted into the air. For a split second, he seemed to hang suspended beneath the shining skull, and then he slowly fell backward, like a great rag doll, over the battlements and out of sight. (HBP pg 596/556)

Why would this application of the Avada Kedavra be so different from every other time we've seen it?

Perhaps his spell was different because even though those were the words Snape said, he didn't perform the killing curse at all. Remember all the importance this book gave to "nonverbal" spells? Perhaps Snape said Avada Kedavra, but the curse he was really thinking, the nonverbal one, was a different curse, one that only made it appear that Dumbledore was dead.

Even the title of the chapter this all takes place in is suspicous, "The Lightning-Struck Tower". Even though this is the name of the ominous tarot card that Trelawney was worried about back on page 543/507 in Chapter 25, is it possible that J.K. is hinting here that the spell was not Avada Kedavra, just some green lightning sparks for show?

5. Don't Point That At Me Unless You Mean It!

In Order of the Phoenix, we learn something interesting and important when Harry tries to curse Bellatrix:

Hatred rose in Harry such that he had never known before. He flung himself out from behind the fountain and bellowed "Crucio!" Bellatrix screamed. The spell had knocked her off her feet, but she did not writhe or shriek with pain as Neville had -- she was already on her feet again ... "Never used an Unforgivable Curse before, have you, boy?" she yelled. "You need to mean them, Potter! You need to really want to cause pain -- to enjoy it ..." (OotP pg 810/715)

If Snape was really working on Dumbledore's orders to make it look to the world as if Snape had killed him, even if he had used the real Avada Kedavra, if he had not really meant it, if he really didn't want to kill Dumbledore, then isn't possible that the curse didn't kill Dumbledore, but only injured him badly?

6. Fawkes' Lament

Directly after Dumbledore's murder, as everyone assembled in the hospital wing, Harry tells everyone Snape did it. He stops, overcome with emotion, and right then, something very important happens:

Madame Pomfrey burst into tears. Nobody paid her any attention except Ginny, who whispered, "Shh! Listen!" (HBP pg 614/573)

Everyone was there, Ron and his parents, Hermione, Lupin, Tonks. Yet it is Madame Pomfrey who J.K. tells us is struck by this turn of events. Continuing:

Gulping, Madame Pomfrey pressed her fingers to her mouth, her eyes wide. Somewhere out in the darkness, a phoenix was singing in a way Harry had never heard before; a stricken lament of terrible beauty. (HBP pg 614/573)

J.K. spends another paragraph on how the phoenix song echos their grief, but while doing so mentions:

Harry felt, as he had felt about the Phoenix song before, that the music was inside him, not without ... How long they stood there, listening, he did not know, nor why it seemed to ease their pain a little to listen... (HBP pg 615/573)

And then McGonagall enters, changes the subject, and the phoenix song is forgotten.

Many minutes later, after all the retelling of the night's affair, J.K. mentions Fawkes is still at it:

They all fell silent. Fawkes's lament was still echoing over the dark grounds outside. (HBP pg 621/579)

...but Harry's thoughts move right on to other things, like wondering where Dumbledore's body is now. Many minutes later still, as this meeting breaks up and Harry is following McGonagall up to what is now her office, J.K. interjects:

The corridors outside were deserted and the only sound was the distant phoenix song. (HBP pg 625/583)

Whatever it was he was doing, Fawkes was working hard at it, and not giving up. Yet we are supposed to believe, as in the title of this chapter, "The Phoenix Lament", that it is only Dumbledore's pet echoing everyone's grief?

Are we so easily to forget that phoenix tears have powerful healing powers?

Significantly, it is the healer, Madame Pomfrey, who is brought to tears by the phoenix song. She knows the healing power of the phoenix well. She gulps with eyes wide. She recognizes something special is going on.

Also, J.K. goes out of her way to point out the healing qualities of the phoenix song, Harry feels it inside, the way he did last time he was healed by one, and most importantly, it seems to ease their pain!

From these passages, it certainly seems that J.K. wants us to know that Fawkes is doing some healing! Perhaps Fawkes is not powerful enough to bring someone back from the Avada Kedavra, but what if Dumbledore was not really hit by an Avada Kedrava, and instead hit with half a spell, or a spell to make him appear dead (as explained in the clues above)?

7. Anyone Seen Dumbledore's Wand Lately?

At the very begining of the big scene between Draco, Dumbledore and Snape, one of the first things that happens is Dumbledore loses his wand:

The door burst open and somebody erupted through it and and shouted, "Expelliarmus!" ... by the light of the Mark, he saw Dumbledore's wand flying in an arc over the edge of the ramparts ... (HBP pg 584/545)

But where is his wand now?

We know a wizard's wand is very important to him, and a wand that belonged to a wizard as powerful as Dumbledore would be a very important item to know the whereabouts of, something you wouldn't want falling into the wrong hands.

This clue might not mean as much if we didn't know the customs of wizards in such occasions, but we do! Five chapters ago, when Harry and Slughorn were consoling Hagrid over the death of Aragog, Hagrid and Sluggy sang a song about a wizard called Odo, and Sluggy sang the lines:

And Odo the hero, they bore him back home,
To the place that he'd known as a lad,
They laid him to rest with his hat inside out
And his wand snapped in two, which was sad. (HBP pg 488/456)

But as far as we know, they didn't snap Dumbledore's wand in two. After the scene at the top of the tower, Dumbledore's wand is simply never mentioned again.

Is it possible that Dumbledore's wand is missing because Dumbledore still has his wand, still needs his wand, because he's not dead?

8. No Body, No Crime

The last time we really saw Dumbledore's body was when Harry is kneeling over it shortly after he has been killed by Snape the previous day.

Now, we see Hagrid carry the body of Dumbledore into his funeral, but it's covered:

Hagrid was walking slowly up the aisle between the chairs. He was crying quite silently, his face gleaming with tears, and in his arms, wrapped in purple velvet spangled with golden stars, was what Harry knew to be Dumbledore's body. (HBP pg 643/599)

We never really see Dumbledore's body at the funeral. How do we know it was there at all?

9. CAUTION: Dumbledore is Flammable

As part of the funeral service, a fire ignites around the body of Dumbledore, and when it subsides, his body is encased in a white marble tomb.

Again, we don't see the body, either before or after the fire.

But more importantly, no one lights the fire, it just happens on its own. A body bursting into flame on its own. That sound like anyone we know? We've seen Fawkes do that several times now in the course of the Harry Potter books, and you know what happens to Fawkes after every time it does.

Earlier in the book, we saw several instances where Dumbledore uses fire, an important aspect of the symbol of a phoenix. When he first meets Tom Riddle in the orphanage, to demonstrate he's a wizard, he sets Tom's wardrobe on fire. And he conjures fire to protect Harry and himself from the infiri in the cave.

And after all this, in case we didn't get the allusions to a phoenix, J.K. reminds us just in case:

White smoke spiraled into the air and made strange shapes: Harry thought, for one heart-stopping moment, that he saw a phoenix fly joyfully into the blue, but next second the fire had vanished. (HBP pg 645/601)

All these clues seem to suggest that if Dumbledore really did die, he has the ability to be reborn out of the ashes of his death, either under his own power, or with the help of the healing powers of Fawkes.

Being a fanatic doesn't really show, right? *wink*

I find these clues all amazing. Most of them I've overlooked as I read the book (prollie from crying, hehe), but now that it's been pointed out, I can't help but think, "Oo nga no." Well, I just wish these clues are right, because I'm still not over Dumbledore's death! Nope!

I really have to scram and study. I've lots of tests tomorrow. =(

martes, agosto 02, 2005

Felix Felicis

You would never believe how dried out my little brain is!

I broke my computer a week or so ago, and I let mom bring it to my uncle's house for immediate fixing, which took one week. But I didn't really mind much because at least I was able to spend more time on schoolwork which our teachers piled on top of our heads. And now I'm studying for exams. Tomorrow will be Math. And Filipino. Argh, two of my hatest subjects! Do you know that I'm a disgrace to the Filipino language? I pronounced 'dibdib' as 'debdeb' (they said. I didn't notice at all.). And 'pagtatalo' became 'patatalo.' Huh.

So, my little brain is dried out because I've been studying too much! Seriously. It started last week, and I've been, like, waking up early just to digest those little words I see on my notebook! Torture!!

I also joined this essay writing contest (!!). Well, not really joined. My English teacher just announced it and I didn't hear the part about the topic so I asked my teacher what the topic was, and you know what she did? She wrote my name on her notebook!! Aargh! It's on Remembering Ninoy Aquino. But how can I remember Ninoy when he died when I wasn't even born yet? It's due on Thursday, and so I'm doing it right now (yes, at the same time), because I'm almost done studying Math, and there are only a few things to study in Filipino, whereas tomorrow I'll be loaded with so many things to study. *sigh* I need a dose of Felix Felicis (from Harry Potter. It's a potion that's supposed to make you lucky) so badly. I just cannot wait for exams to be over.

So, okay, back to the essay thing. Which I labored over the weekend and I only made a few sentences! And my mom wouldn't even help me! Whaa!!

Someone, please hand me a bottle of Felix Felicis. NOW.